2 Nights Before the Show
2 Nights Before the Show
got this far and im ready to go farther
I have a piece in a gallery this week.
This month was tough. From being overworked in classes, to not being able to create as much works as I wanted to, to sleep deprivation, and the rapid jumps from the highest highs and the lowest lows. I’ve been shipping things, planning careers, managing classes, fighting the bank, and experimenting with mediums. But through this, I still stand. And I will be standing in a gallery in 2 nights. (i forgot i had to send this out lmfao im writing this 8 hrs before its sent (dont judge me for my actions judge me for my character xoxo))
I’ve been in a few galleries before, but I’ve never been to any of my showings. From Miami, NYC, and Rochester, I still havent seen one of my pieces on an opening night. And I haven’t seen a woodwork at all. But on thursday I’ll be in denver, meeting people who I’ve wanted to meet for months now, and finally being able to experience my own work out in the world.
It’s a weird feeling - What if nobody likes it? what if nobody wants to talk to me? how would I deal with criticism? Am I only there to fill a spot? Am I gonna match up to my art? Where would be the nearest bathroom? Whats it gonna be like meeting ppl I only know online? Food situation? Will this be my last show? These are my current thoughts - thankfully I know I am sleep deprived so im not taking any of these questions to heart (trying, at least) and I feel like I already have an answer thats very positive. I have so much support, and it’s almost hard not to see the support, but I still find a way to let delusions win.
I have learned to simply become more delusional than the preconceived delusions. The key is having positive delusions from the heart, not the negative ones from the mind. And also sleep is necessary to figure out which is which. I am nervous for this. But in a good way. I feel like this is one of the many final & first steps I am gonna take in my art career. I think that is what makes it scary. The cycle begins anew.
Much love,
Faraz
oop u wanted the linky dink? heres the lil poster:
https://enigmabazaar.com/event/art-on-tap/
oop u wanna meet my online friends/ see the future of art too? u gotta check out Burrito Dao ;)
lemme end this one with a meme that rly hit hard this month. I used to suck at taking in love bc I always feel like I need to double it back, or that I owe something tangible, or that I j dont deserve it. But it’s ok to be loved without feeling guilty for it, its beautiful actually.
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