Damn i missed my newsletter :(
but i got to sleep :)
managing everything is tough, and I rly dont know how to do everything in the day that I want to. after ramadan i kinda j fell back into a lot of bad habits honestly; from time mismanagement, cigs, not going to the gym, late to work, etc. But its not j cuz im sleepy, but I signed up for more than I can chew. But i think this is the best way for me to do things?
When it comes to how I manage my work, I am usually always very stressed. It doesn’t rly matter on the timeline, I just ignore it until its a problem. So i’ve realized that I just book up my entire schedule until its something I can’t ignore anymore lmao. i try and make a cut off date (rn its May 25th) and i will fill legit every day with. From going out, to commissions(!!!), to sleep, and daily routines, it creates a consistency in action which I rly like. In my few months of living here i got fomo like once which im rly happy abt. ik things r always happening, so im comfy knowing missing something doesnt mean itll never happen again. But I get up, brainrot on my phone, get ready for work, and start doing my daily tasks. from practicing art through sketches and studies, reading and planning pieces, to going off on my lunchbreak to edit stopmotion footage. every second is planned to make something - unsure of how healthy this is but ultimately the work is done.
and once that deadline hits, i’ll j go sleep for the day. take a walk. play some pkmn. at most, fix up my notion. and hopefully ill have the energy to do what i want. a night out would also b a huge plus too icl.
while im not sure how sustainable this lifestyle is, its what works best now. i’ve learned that I can rly only act based on the tools given, until i can build the right tools later. but these grinds and resets have paid off here and there, so i’m excited to keep them pushing. I just want to have the time to care for myself more, and that is gonna b the next goal for the few weeks ahead,
aight i gotta get to this stuff fr
byeeeee ilyyyyy
faraz
ps. if im ever late in a newsletter j know i feel the guilt of generations before me, deeply burying these feelings into my soul to alter my sense of humanity
pss. na not rly lmao; im v happy w how i’ve been w my newsletters and ik theres only so much i can do in the day; i will never regret an extra hour to sleep
psps. free Palestine seeing these school encampments have been so beautiful, and i managed to get a lil group of ppl to go protest recently too. I haven’t protested as much recently, but i wanna go more; i’ve overbooked myself an am suffering the consequences but i’ll b going soon
ummmm