Speaking to Infinity
ooo meta title wow
I’ve grown my digital footprint a lot in the past few months. From newsletters, to manic tweets, to more in depth descriptions of my pieces, i feel very public. It isnt something too concerning right now, but it was a bit scary seeing how much of myself is out there.
Sharing my stories and life lessons has always been fun af for me. We all rly go through the same things with different flavors, and seeing those similarities within our lives. And its j nice to talk abt ourselves lmao like we rly r super interesting. I wish more ppl did talk about ourselves. But talking about myself online is a bit tough when i already don’t talk abt myself that much irl. I like having personal conversations, but this does not feel like a conversation, but instead a lil writing on a wall for ppl to walk past. I don’t know who is reading, but i do think ppl appreciate it.
With sharing so much of myself, it feels odd to not have that much kept to myself anymore. I do feel more open, but at the same time i feel more hollow. I’m honestly still figuring out if this is a good or bad type of hollow. I wouldnt call it empty inside, as there is still a lot of energy within me; there just isn’t as much that I hold as “sacred” or “precious” when it comes to my personal thoughts and feelings. i dont mind it but I do miss being able to give lil nuggets of my personal life to individual ppl. yes i have a scorpio sun and a leo moon like duh~~~
I started to b more public online to practice talking abt myself. And it definitely has helped me. I usually am the one asking questions in a lot of parts in my life, but its nice to finally talk my shit. I’ve been messing around w voiceovers for my reels, and I do think ill b doing long form video content in a few months (i have no sources for this claim). I also want to b more accessible as a person. While i do have robotic tendencies (im literally four macbooks, ai, and a glove) (im j rly regimented and monotone sometimes) i feel like its hard to connect w ppl online and its hard to b myself online. but it rly has taught me that I am/we are infinite. there hasnt been an end to what i have to say. i think we have a lot more than we understand.
so much love, and remember to talk ur shit till infinity
ps. omg yay i didn’t think id b able to finish this newsletter tn. im graduating in a bit over a month and I rly need to go. this has been a hard few years and i want to leave. but o the things ive learned, and the art ive made. the feelings ive felt, and the feelings I havent. I rly might j start writing the next letter now butttt…
psps. the next newsletter is gonna b from nyc! ill b there for a few days to see some events at NFT NYC and im hyped asf but i need like 6 naps before then. and gaddamn that hotel was a bit ekspensee0.0
peepees. the email didnt send i was legit doing so well pls
yes i finished some more stopmotions and yes it was fire. glad i could get back into these like im forever grateful
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